The Absence of Color

Six years ago we welcomed into our family a 3lb 4oz son. He was very excited to meet the world that he came 7 weeks early just to greet everyone. I contracted HELPP (HELLP syndrome is a life-threatening obstetric complication usually considered to be a variant or complication of pre-eclampsia) and was rushed to deliver him as they were afraid I was starting to go septic. That was one of the scariest nights of my and my family and friends life. Luckily I was able to see him born via c-section but I could not cuddle hime for quite some days. I was so scared of hurting him that it took me 12 hours to head to the NICU to see him again in person. I stayed with him the entire 17 days he was in the